Kids + Fighting

Today was a day…

Had friends over and our children would not stop fighting, crying, screaming, yelling, you name it. It was embarrassing.

So you could tell they were definitely over tired.

But then they napped.

For hours I might add.

& STILL WOKE UP CRANKY!

(Okay, I’ll give them an hour before they got cranky again)

But then all hell broke loose again.

Fighting over toys, not listening, picking on their baby brother, yelling at mom…

It’s been a day.

One of those days where you are exhausted emotionally..

& then this happens 👇🏻

Like seriously?!

Parenting is hard.

But dang they are cute!

(Especially when they are behaving 😉)

3rd Birthday

I think tonight was the hardest night before a birthday…

I talked with a coworker earlier today and she said she cried the night before her child turned 3 and I thought “well that’s silly! The first birthday was the biggest!”

& then tonight happened.

We ate tacos as a family, stayed up late watching what they wanted and then tucked them in.

I sat down with each of them and explained that tonight they go to bed as 2 year olds and tomorrow they will wake up 3.

& they understood.

I think that’s the difference between the first and second birthday..

Yes, those birthdays are big and life changing but 3…

Now they understand.

They are excited.

& you see the last 3 years pass before your eyes.

My babies are no longer babies.

They are two very independent, loving, crazy and sometimes frustrating 3 year olds.

They love both mom and dad more than life.

They could not live without their baby brother or their puppy.

& their bond is incredible.

Yes, Holden may have asked if him and Riley could not share a birthday but that’s also the beauty of this age!

He knows that they share everything, even a birthday

& he’s old enough to tell us his concerns.

He loves his sister the most

but heck, I don’t think I’d always want to share either.

So tonight was hard.

I’m going to bed with two 2 year olds (& a 1.5 year old) and waking up with 3 year olds.

I’m not sure where these last 3 years went but I’m so glad they chose me to be their mom. ❤️

Open Book

A friend and colleague of mine shared her story of her two miscarriages on Facebook today. Not for self-pity, not for attention but to share her grief and story to maybe help someone else going through the same thing.

& that same person helped me when I needed it the most.

As many of you know, March is a beautiful but hard month for me.

In March of 2016 I lost my first baby very early on in my pregnancy and I had a doctor who was not empathetic towards my loss.

Then in March 2017 I was diagnosed with endometriosis, had surgery and started my infertility journey.

& in March 2018 came the beautiful part.

On March 30th at 00:00 and 01:35 I welcomed my beautiful twins.

Just over 2 years from my loss, I was blessed with two beautiful babies who will now be 3 this month.

& then I was blessed again in 2019 with my last baby.

Both journeys were hard.

Both journeys had ups, downs and a lot of in between.

But it was so worth it.

So I must thank those who opened up to me.

Without you, without your stories, I may not be a mother of three.

I may have given up.

& I may have never opened up about my journey.

So THANK YOU to you all.

Whether it be opening up about your story or just reading mine. ❤️

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