1st Birthday

Today was my sons 1st birthday.

It was an amazing day celebrating him but also a hard day remembering a year ago.

My son was born 4 weeks early via urgent c-section due to decreased fetal movement. He was born with an Apgar score of a 1. We did not get to hold him or see him for more than a second before he was taken away.

Once intubated and an umbilical line placed, he was stable but not without a fight.

The next 7 days were hard. We didn’t get to hold him. We didn’t get to feed him. He laid there, fighting for his life.

& there was no guarantee that he would survive.

But he did and we are forever thankful.

Now a year later, he is still fighting.

He is happy, healthy but he has a bad heart. He takes medication 3 times a day & gives his mama a heart attack at least once a day.

Our lives will never be worry free but every year, every day, it gets a little easier.

Because we hope that one day, it will all just be a memory.

Happy 1st Birthday baby boy. Mom & Dad love you.

NEVER stop fighting 💙

Childcare Change

Tomorrow we start in the nanny business.

To say I’m nervous is an understatement, not because I don’t like her or don’t trust her with my children but because it is a big change for us.

For the last 2.5 years we have had the same daycare lady.

She’s wonderful.

She’s the reason my son knows how to count to 13 and that my daughter is so excited to learn her colors.

They love her.

So our last day was bittersweet to say the least.

But we are also excited to start this new journey with our nanny.

To have someone 100% committed to our children. To our family.

& the best part?

To have two people love our children almost as much as we do.

So here is trusting that an ending is followed by a beginning.

But never really saying goodbye. ❤️

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Childcare

I thought finding childcare was hard while I was pregnant.

Before I even knew my children. Before I knew they personalities. Their likes & their dislikes.

I was going in blind. Trying to find someone to care for my unborn children whom I had not even met yet.

& then I had to find childcare for my 2 year olds and my 7 month old…

The last few days we have been interviewing nanny’s and let me tell you…

I’d go back to that blind date scenario!

Finding someone to help us with our children who have varying personalities but that we also like is HARD.

We want someone who has the same mindset as us, who will help raise our children into amazing people and who also loves them like we do.

But finding all of that in one person is hard.

Luckily we had found that person during our “blind” search.

But it’s a tad more tough now.

A few interviews later and I’m second guessing my top 2 choices.

Will they care for my children like I do?

Will they stick around?

Will they know what to do in an emergency?

Will they teach them right from wrong?

Do I go with the one with more nannying experience?

Do I go with the one who I personally connected with right away?

Do I go with the one who will do lesson plans or the one who will keep them on a routine schedule?

So many questions. So many what ifs.

My children are my life & picking someone to help me care for them, raise them and teach them when I am not around is tough.

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