Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month

March 2016 was hard. My doctor said it was too early to test and see if I was pregnant even though I knew in my heart that I was. 3 days later I had the worst pain and a day later I started bleeding. I was told it was either an ovarian cyst rupturing or that I just had a miscarriage. But “I would never know”.

Then I had surgery in March of 2017 and it was confirmed. I had no sign of any ovarian cysts.

A year later, March 2018, I had my first babies. But there was an extra sac. A baby that never grew.

So instead of 2 rainbow babies, I now have 3.

I am 1 in 4. ❤️

#pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth #rainbowbabies

Partners

Does life ever get a little too heavy?

Too many chores, too many responsibilities, being pulled in way too many different ways?

Lately I’ve been feeling overwhelmed.

I’m going to school, working full time, being a mom, a wife, trying to keep up on all of the household duties and still trying to have a social life for my mental health.

It’s hard.

But do you want to know why it isn’t too hard?

Because I have a partner who helps.

He gets up with the kids on Sunday so I can have an extra hour or two of sleep.

He helps fold the laundry.

He cooks dinner or brings something home to eat.

He cuts the grass, picks up the dog poop, and does ALL of the household projects (sometimes too many in my opinion).

& he also owns a business.

We are both busy, but we both help lessen the load for the other.

Life may sometimes feel to be “too much” at times, but I ALWAYS have him in my corner.

Partners.

& that is ALWAYS enough.

What Truly Matters

In the last few months I have realized what truly matters. My family – My husband, my kids & those who take the time for us.

So I apologize that I haven’t written more, but I’ve been taking more time for my family, for myself and for things that I care about.

But as today is my birthday, it made it quite clear what truly matters.

I took the day off to spend it with my kids and our nanny.

& it was the BEST day! We went to the apple orchard, picked out new toys, went out for lunch and got ice cream.

I couldn’t have planned a better day if I tried.

Then tonight, Nana and Papa watched the kids for a few hours so my husband and I could go out for dinner. We talked about our days & we talked about our KIDS.

& not even 9 o’clock at night and we are in bed enjoying the day we had.

NOTHING could have made my birthday better.

Not jewelry, not presents, not ANYTHING.

My day was perfect just the way it was.

The way that it was meant to be, with my family.

& I promise, I’ll be taking more time for days like today.

❤️